Sunday, November 22, 2009

You want me to do what?

As my quest of a hot mess has progressed and continued on for several weeks now, I am finding that I am becoming stronger and stronger. But there are still times when I look at the work out of the day that is expected of me and say to myself (and sometimes to my trainer), "you want me to do what? I'm sorry, but have you forgotten who you are dealing with? Me? WHAT?"

I had that same sort of feeling today. When I checked my crossfit trainer's blog for what I will be doing tomorrow, I saw that the workout has been named, Angie." Now I don't know who Angie is or why in the world this workout is named after her, but I am certain that I don't want to know. The work out is 100 pullups, 100 pushups, 100 situps, and 100 air squats...all for time. I laugh to myself thinking, "How long will this take me?"

But, what I have to remind myself of, is that when I began, I could hardly do 10 burpees without dying...I could only jump on a 12 inch tire and barely make that...I did pushups on my knees...I was no weight lifter by any stretch of the imagination...and I certainly had not done a handstand since I was a teenager.

Now, a mere 8-9 weeks later, I have done 50 burpees when required...I jump on a 20" box...I do full body pushups (for most workouts)...I max out at a 190 lb deadlift...I can front squat 115 lbs...AND for an added bonus, I can do a workout requiring handstands!!!

I say all this...not to blow the bugle in honor of my accomplishment...but to remind us all that it doesn't matter where you begin. I doesn't matter how "strong" or "weak" your perception of your strength is when you begin. It doesn't matter how much you weigh or how much weight you think you need to lose when you begin. The only thing that matters is that YOU BEGIN!

Beginning is the hardest part!! Changing yourself, changing your schedule, re-prioritizing, making time for your health, taking time to do the work to live longer and have a better quality of life...none of these is easy, but take it from me...IT'S WORTH IT. It is worth every bead of sweat.

I have so far to go and my quest will go on and on. But, it's my quest and it is continuing and will continue! How is your quest? My words for today...BEGIN!

1 comment:

  1. dixi - you are doing a great job - don't you just feel sometimes you are on top of the world when you complete that WOD. Each time is hard, I get so upset when my scales do not go down, i just know i'm not giving up - thanks for being such a great workout partner! We can do anything... maybe a few 4 letter words get us through it - but we will make it. See you on Wed.